Year in Review

Well, this may be the last post for the year 2004.

So, like everyone else, I'm going to give a personal year in review.

2004 started with my Grandmother very ill. We would lose her early in the year. It would be an odd situation and the first time I've had to deal with a death so close to me. But the moment that will always stick out to me were my last words to her. I kissed her on the forehead and whispered "I love you, Grandma." she opened her eyes and said "I love you too." It still brings a tear to my eye when I think about it. I do miss her horribly but it helps to think that I was lucky enough to have over 28 years to learn from her and enjoy her stories.


Also, in January, I pierced my tongue and it heald real quick so that was cool.
I ended my job at Wilson's Leather since it was a holiday deal and it wasnt until March that I got a new job at a new Family Dollar in Jackson. I always enjoyed setting up new stores...but I hated doing it with a bunch of boobs. Fortunatly, none of them were kept on as regular staff.
End of March/beginning of April we had to deal with my dad's heart attack. I gotta tell you, that was the FASTED I've ever broken out of a dead sleep, got my shit together and drove to hospial!
I managed to call my older sister Nikki who contacted other siblings. But probably the best part of a bad situation was my best friend's mom, Nancy, worked at the hospital and fortunatly for me, she was there that morning and helped me through it. THANK YOU, NANCY!!!!

As my dad was laid up in the hospital we had other matters to attend to, mostly my ailing step-mom, Annette. With dad out of comission and me working, she couldnt be left home alone so we figured it would be best if her family looked after her.
Their option was to look after her while I worked and when I wasnt at the hospital. I would like to say her daughter, Sally, was a total twat about the whole thing. I mean, you have a sick parent! It's your RESPONSIBILITY to take care of her!
Oh, and before I go further, I would like to take a moment to talk about Sally. As my father was laid up, she tried to sneak over to their house, where I was staying, and get some kind of paperwork, presumably for her mom, but probably in a bid to get my dad out of the house. We had a confrontation wherein she laid into my sick father, blaming him for her mothers condition (mind you my sister Aamber was there that day as well) and even ADMITTED to having had my father followed in an attempt to find some secret relationship but damned if she couldnt take care of her mom! Now, she was able to walk away from her stupid rant ONLY because she had one of her kids with her. As much as I dont care about ripping into someone, I wont when their kid is there. HOWEVER, I only give this pass once. She does it again, I'll simply put her in her place.
I mean, this dumb broad wante me to give her my house key so she could come and go as she pleased! I told her if I did that I wouldnt be able to get in the house and with both dad and Annette in hospital (oh, yeah, after telling us she would keep an eye on her mother, Sally LIED and left Annette alone, she tripped over her oxygen hose and hit her head, ending up in the hospital THE SAME DAY with a big nasty bruise on her head) Anyway, with both of them gone it was MY responsibility to make sure the house was ok and I honestly never trusted that woman.
She always hated my dad...never seemed to care much for me, but the feelings were more than mutual.

Anyway...

June: Mike moved to Portland, Oregon after we talked about getting the hell out of Jackson, this was, of course, after dad have recivered from his heart attack, and in July I flew out here to join him.
September: I found a job at this huge ass mall called the Lloyd Center Mall in the Suncoast store. I deal in DVDs now, my second love after Comic Books.

November: Mike and I went to celebrate Thanksgiving at our good friend Bobbie Joe's and we did Christmas at home, not doing much due to lack of funds.

ALso in December, Annette passed away. In a way it's sad but considering the pain she was always in, I feel she is much better off and is probably a lot happier.

Other than that, the only other deal was probably the massive amounts of burned bridges in 2004. In hindsight it was probably the best way to make a bad situation that had already spun horribly out of control worse than it already was. But, not much I can do about that now, is there? I'm sure they all still hate me, which is fine. Being in Portland, where things are massivly different than they are in Jackson has shown me a few things I never knew before. It's hard to put into words but let's just say, I'm probably a better person for having come out here and it's really kind of sad that things are to far gone now for that to make any difference in the relationships that were destroyed.
But the question still lingers: Do any of us really remember what exactly started this stupidity? It's probably not important now but I just remember things always being said that added to the crap pile but little being thought of about how it got started. I have my personal theories but they are obviously slanted. Normally, I'd welcome any thoughts from another perspective but the ones with the best insight, those involved, would rather see me take a flying leap than talk to me.
I understand that but still, as I've said before, wish them all the best.

So, that was my life in 2004, the personal bits anyway, not including all the Presidential stuff and whatnot... I hope everyone, regardless of if you hate me or not, had a good, sucessful and entertaining 2004 and I hope that 2005 is five times as good for you all!
(Funny thing is, I don't even know whay I mentioned people from my past, I know good and well that they havent the slightest clue I have a blog now, nor would they ever look at it if they did know...I guess it just seems right to post these things and be honest about them)

See you next year!